Why am I surprised? Is this not the repetition of a familiar score? I should know by now, that when I call out to experience the fullness of me, when I reach to open myself to a new level of awareness, when I clamor for growth, for deepening wisdom, my calls are answered immediately, perfectly.
And yet, that manifests, first, as struggle, as hardship, as a trigger for resistance. So I find myself holding back, building walls, protective of something I cannot name.
Have I not experienced this sufficiently to know to let go, to release my thoughts, my beliefs, my attachments?
Must I dance in the spiral this way, again and again, for as long as thoughts rule me?