After concentrating my energy with great, intense focus, no longer doing so leaves me feeling unmoored. As if I were drifting aimlessly.
This gives me such discomfort! I would like to turn away from this unease immediately.
Nonetheless, I make a choice. I will sit with this discomfort.
And, sitting with it, I am reminded: “aimless” is either impossible, or it is intrinsic.
Impossible, intrinsic… in practical terms, both have the same effect.
I am, after all.
This awareness allows quietude within me. And from the quietude, something bubbles into my consciousness: the intention to remain vigilant, awake.