So often, in the past few weeks, I have been called to affirm the strengths and beauty of my clients, my friends, and strangers before me. So often, they have been caught in the sticky web of their self-doubt, of their fear and the veil of their feelings of unworthiness. They have been unable to see what is clear to me, golden and shiny, about their True Self, about themselves as beings, and not as parents, spouses, friends, children.
I, too, know the light ease, the joy, of feeling truly seen, of being reminded by another that I am powerful, that I am beautiful, that I offer light and love to the world without having to make an effort. I need that too, sometimes, some soft-whispered encouragement, a gentle nudge of affirmation, a supportive clap on my shoulder.
But as I recognize how much my vision of wholeness is called for by the persons who stand before me, regardless of how briefly, I remember, too, what it was like to be so far from center to need this outward affirmation. I remember what it was like to want what I heard from a loving other to be true about me, without quite believing it.
And I take a moment to stop and allow my gratitude to flow through me. I don’t know when it happened that something so deep shifted within me that there should be a time when I feel so whole, complete. Today, I bask in outward affirmation, but I do not need it to recognize myself, to remember who I am. Today, I am firmly in my center.