Reflections From My True Self

Remembering Who I Really Am

Wild Woman Within

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I received a strange dream last night that felt mythic, as if I experienced it through a veil. It had few real images that I can recall, but I was aware of myself among a throng of beings, displaced from our homes and each one rushing to search for a place of our own, among rows and rows, and clusters of rows of dressing room stalls. I found a stall for myself, (the only image I can recall from this dream) metal painted green, with a door that didn’t go all the way to the floor and no distinct ceiling.

In the dream, I was aware that there were other creatures out there, predatory creatures, powerful, creatures that I would have good reason to fear or, at least, avoid. I can’t recall them, but I think of them as wolves. They seemed to be calling to me. At least, I intuited that they wanted me to join them, and, despite reason indicating I should keep away, I really wanted to go to them. But I was reluctant to leave my stall, aware that if I went, it would quickly be occupied by another refugee like myself, urgently wanting one.

I couldn’t make out what the dream could mean until my soul’s friend, Amy, said the stalls remind her of work. I realize that it is about my decision not to renew my certification as a translator. Even though I may do a translation now and then, I am no longer holding onto that work as the floating life preserver I used to consider it.

Amy also said those wolves deserved healthy respect, but I didn’t fear them, instead I decided to run with them.

When she said that, a body memory awoke within me, in my womb, of the first time I felt the primal, physical and spiritual imperative of my True Self to do something very specific. It happened one day, in my early twenties, when I awoke in my bed, crying, knowing that I had to break up with my first and only long-time boyfriend, whom I loved, but with whom I had begun to feel stifled.

This force in my womb— which today’s dream has evoked again, opening wide my second chakra— I thought of as “the Wild Woman Within” (from Women Who Run With The Wolves). It was bigger and more powerful than anything I had ever felt. And I knew, more clearly than I knew anything about the world, that there was a part of me that was greater than anything my consciousness could grasp, and it was driving me. I had no choice but to obey: one way or the other, I would be compelled to obey.

Realizing that, recognizing that I had no choice, I felt forced, but also, for the first time, free to give heed to the Wild Woman Within.

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Author: Andrea Friedmann

I am an intuitive Life Coach at VibrationsCoaching.com, helping women who feel stuck, lost, and stressed, in their business or their personal life, to reconnect to who they really are, so they can build a life they thrive in. My clients want to feel confident, energized, and excited by their life again! What makes me different is that I developed a process that combines coaching, spirituality, and energy work and, with it, my clients quickly get rid of anxiety, change the underlying, limiting beliefs that keep them stuck and stressed, and discover they have what they need to thrive!

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